Whole30- Day 3 and 4, yes I “failed”

Today I forgot to eat my eggs with breakfast and since it was heavy on the potatoes, my bloodsugar started to drop.

After eating, I was fine and outside of that minor issue, I felt good on day 3.

Day 4, I found my OCD obsessive nature had me so obsessive, I couldn’t force myself to think about food. OCD was what kept me in the past from doing it again but I sat myself down and decided I am finishing the month low sugar/Paleo.

Since I already found my food sensitivities last time I did it, I have no real need to do it again and having a small desert when you’re stressed out isn’t bad- in moderation.

Paleo limits all the foods I am sensitive to already so tomorrow I’ll officially start a Paleo challenge. I have felt so sick today and with my job, kids and everything, it’s not a good time to feel sick. I’m not going to run off to Starbucks, just switch and see if Paleo feels better. I’m realizing I don’t need extreme restricitive when I already have some healthy foods I can’t eat, or eat much of.

Whole30- Day 2

Today, I woke up a bit late and ended up with 20 minutes to get ready to head to work.

Thanks to that and lack of planning, I had to grab a bowl of fruit and didn’t eat until after I got home.

I ended up only having 1 meal and 2 peices of fruit today but I’m still feeling full. I made a large meal of fried potatoes, onions, peppers, tomatoes and ground beef.

I cooked the whole roll of ground beef and hard boiled a full dozen eggs. Last night, I made a batch of unsweet iced tea so I would have something to drink other than water or coffee. The tea gave me my caffeine fix since I didn’t have time to grab a coffee.

The day has been slow and fast. My day at work went by extremely slow but my day after work sped by. During week 2, I’m planning on cutting fruit for a week to cut all sugar out of my diet. I have my breakfast and lunch planned and am thankfully off work on Monday.

 

Smoking progress- I reset my quit date. I am trying to pace quitting, wanting to still do it but not wanting to do too much all at once and end up failing everything. I am cutting way back.

 

Day 1- Whole30

Things are going well. I’m planning on making some iced unsweet tea when I get home because I’m craving tea and love unsweet

I’m not craving anything outside of unsweet tea and it’s allowed, so its all good. I did get to feeling very hungry but my lunch break was late.

I’m planning on going grocery shopping today after work so ill be able to get what I need.

I’m working up to quitting smoking so I don’t end up failing everything

So far- mood- fine

Cravings- none

Symptoms- brain fog and time standing still

Completed my first day of grocery shopping

It killed my budget but I hope it lasts through the majority of 2-3 weeks.

The meat alone should. Im not feeling great nor bad. Wanting tea and that’s it.

Today is my technical last day but my food has been compliant

I was wrong before. I keep thinking there are only 30 days in the month.

Today, I ate bacon and eggs for breakfast and have a lunch of a plain baked potato, salmon and kale with no butter.

I’m still unsure if ill allow myself one last time indulgence or am going to just start today. Im thinking starting today.

Tomorrow is my cigarette quit day, I have work then a day of making candles and editing my book planned after to keep my hands and mind busy.

Leaving Facebook Personal Challenge

Facebook long lost it’s appeal to me. There were times I would find myself mindlessly scrolling just to try to see new stuff.

I’m strange and I don’t particularly like memes clogging up my feed and the security breeches have had me a bit on edge.

On top of being morally against a lot of what Facebook stands for, I found myself wanting to smoke more when I scrolled through the politics in the feed (I keep my business separated from politics and I had my business name on my profile, so I kept political beliefs to myself) and it gets stressful when you see so much political misinformation posted by people you care about..

It also wasted time. Unless I was talking to people on messenger (I gave them my phone number before deleting), I was wasting time. I still have a business page that is under control from my husband’s account, but I rarely post.

I find Twitter and Instagram are better platforms for writers and creative business owners (IG is owned by Facebook, so I guess it’s not that great but they’re better than Facebook)

I’ve tried to quit a few times but always ran back, so this time I created a brand new email. I didn’t attach the e-mail to anything else and created a password I would never know.

I then changed Facebook to the same password, changed and deleted my email address and set both up to delete.

it may seem extreme but I tested and neither account are able to get revived so it will be deleted by the middle of this coming month.

One week in, I still talk to the same people I messaged. I just talk via text. I also won’t be going back with any other email accounts.

I have checked on my business page and read through news briefly on my husband’s phone, but I don’t take time to read comments nor do I miss the site nearly as much as I thought I would.

 

Anyone else realize they were addicted to Facebook and decide to give it up cold turkey?

How was your experience?

Today is the day before I start Whole30

Technically, its still 7-29, but once I wake up it will be the day before.

I’m getting myself used to unsweetened tea already (I already liked it.)

I’m not feeling nervous, even though I’m going to try to go without tobacco as well. (I’m creating a 30 day no nicotine challenge for myself as well)

I’ll be posting daily updates and working on focusing on other things.

Last week, I gave up Facebook. I now have no way to access it to unset it up for deletion so next month, I’ll be focused on learning new recipes I’ll post on here, writing and learning pottery/sewing clothing.

I’m going to try to switch things up to spend the time i would smoke

Tomorrow I’ll post up my before pics and weight.

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Its time to break the taboo

Tw- child loss

Why is mentioning the child you lost so hard?

The feelings of guilt for saying “I have 2 daughters” instead of 3. But if I say “2 and an angel” the conversation ends immediately (unless she is also in this inclusive and deranged club)

Trying to brush it off and saying “I’m fine” when I realize it would be lil miss’s birthday and I’m out in public.

Lil Miss would be turning 7 in June.

The pain eases up over time, you live the life they would want. You have your amazing rainbow and suddenly, you start to see the children you do have more as amazing miracles.

You study the medical problems to such an extreme you suddenly realize we are all miracles to be born- so much can and does go wrong with pregnancies

1 in 4 lose babies, so why is it still so awkward to mention it?

It can be seen as a deeply personal thing, at the same time, its also as personal as the number of living kids running along side you at the store. The only difference is, 1 is with you in spirit while the others are there in person.

I wrote a while back for the website Pregnant Chicken, an article about the isolation of losing a baby and so many women related to it. It’s a taboo we need to break. Something that people should understand- the guilt of having to pretend that the baby never existed and the awkwardness of mentioning she did.

Mentioning the angel isn’t looking for sympathy, its showing pride in the beautiful baby who was taken too soon and acknowledging her shouldn’t lead to awkward silence, it should be seen the same as showing off the living kids.

Mentioning mine has educated several other women on the importance of folic acid and neural tube defects

Its also the main reason we do March for babies every year

I’d love to see a day when mentioning the baby that didn’t make it would be just the same as mentioning the ones who did. Where you don’t have to ignore the guilt when you tell someone the number of living kids you have and leave out “and an angel”

I would love to see the taboo lifted so that guilt could cease to exist.

I’m in the process of creating a dream interpretation course

If you have been interested in learning dream interpretation, this is for you.

In this course, you will learn to delve in to the internal world of your dreams. You won’t wake up again from a dream and wonder what it meant, this will give you the knowledge and tools to sit down and analyze the dream yourself. You will know what to look at, which parts of your dream were more important and you will have a reference sheet to look at to determine what everything means.

Why should you listen to me?

I have been studying dreams and dream interpretation for over 20 years. In that time, I have compiled a list of the most important details in dreams that I look at when I’m analyzing other peoples’ dreams. I also am in the process of writing a 3 part dictionary/journal to guide people through meanings and explain the significance in dream symbols.

Why am I writing this?

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The introduction is up and anyone who signs up will be notified as I get each lesson up.

There will be a total of 12 lessons- major topics. My journal can easily compliment it and you can get it at the link above.